the straw that broke the emotionless immortal

I'm simply tired of caring about almost everything.All I want to do is go to classes for the next 7 years and graduate law school and run.Run like I did before except this time there is nothing for me to come back for.That walked out of my life today,forever.Except there is a certain point in my life where I can't show him or anyone else my emotions.I am at this point now.Don't worry I will still be "happy" and "nice" around you still,because thats the REAL me anyway,fake.Just know that every time I'm not around I'm thinking about leaving again and how pointless this really is,me sticking around.Wish that shit wouldn't get to me and I wouldn't sit and dwell on what could of been.And I know wishes are for fools and believers...but thats me,hopeless.Enough of this I could write entry after entry about how unhappy I am with my self and with my life but who really wants to hear that?Exactlly.
Dani